I told you that I learned a lot over my blog break and I think this is the biggest eye opener I had.
My biggest failure has been responsibility.
One of my largest pet peeves with my oldest son is that he is lazy and takes the easy way out of everything. Anything I ask him to do he whines and complains about it.
After complaining about him, God showed me that that is EXACTLY how I look to Him. I try to find the easy way out of cleaning, disciplining my kids, and doing just about everything.
I'm almost 30 but sometimes I think I'm still mentally a teenager. I just want to be left alone to play video games, talk on the phone and listen to music.
It's sad it's taken this long.for me to realize it.
I've been giving into my kids if it would just shut them up.
I now have a 3 year old who thinks he rules the roost.
My oldest would fight me on homework so I would make it as easy as possible for him...only for him to not fail just one test but THREE!!
The reason homeschooling didn't work for me is because I FAILED to make my kids mind. That is the short end of it.
My life became chaotic because I refused to be responsible for it!
I have a hard time following a schedule because I still live in the atmosphere of following my feelings.
I have a lot to learn, but thank God He put people in my life that I can look up to in this area and truly have a heart to just help me.
My biggest advice I can give you is ask God what your REAL problems are and be willing to face them. That way God can help you through them.
I was blinded by my real problem. I thought I needed more patience...although that's part of it...it wasn't the MAIN problem...or the ROOT cause of it all.
When my oldest was born, I was an on fire mom. I did everything by the book. I didn't battle with laziness at all. But once my youngest was born, it all went out the window. I had a very hard time juggling him and everything else. Granted he was rather difficult, I was still blind.
Don't be blind!!
"Then you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free"
-John 8:32
My son's school doesn't have a spring break, but they do have an extended winter break (they are off until the middle of January). So for the past few weeks it has been a "testing" ground for me with homeschooling. I truly know that God has put it on my heart again but I need to prove to hubby (and myself) that I can handle it. The changes that have happened in ONLY 2 weeks is amazing!
Ladies, if there is an area in your life that you just plain don't like about yourself, BRING IT TO GOD!
Having somewhat of a deadline (this summer) to get my act together helps me A LOT. I can't procrastinate with wanting to change or to DO the things that I know God has shown me. I also surrender my will a lot easier knowing I won't change any other way.
When I homeschooled in 2011-2012 it ruined my relationship with my son. When he has vacation, it's a battle zone in this house. However the last few weeks our relationship has gotten better.
Why?
It's simple...I DO what God has been putting on my heart.
And I have been more responsible and not letting things slide!
Again, ladies, if there is something in your life that you don't like, ask God WHY it's that way and see if it's something that you yourself are causing! And then take God's hand and have Him guide you out of it!
God bless you in your journey as a mom, wife and beautiful homemaker!
3 comments:
Like I responded on my blog, you are my sister from another mister lol :) I've gone through this same thing! Only it was guilt for me because my husband and I split up for 6 weeks when my oldest was 3. I started giving in because I felt so guilty and wanted to make his little life better.
Now I deal with a 7 year old who only wants to play on the computer or watch tv. Who whines and cries when asked to do anything.I also have a 3 year old who has started down the same path. It's getting better though because having my baby made me realize all the things that needed to be fixed.
I stand my ground even though I want to give in so bad sometimes. I punish even though I have to go by myself afterwards and shed a few tears.
I'm 33 and I also just want time to sit and play video games and listen to music. It makes me wonder if I will ever feel 'grown up' lol.
i have 4 kids, my oldest is a firey piece of work who exhausts me. i started homeschooling a yr and a 1/2 ago. i tell ya, it's only by the grace of God we make it. some days we don't...but it's okay too. hope you find the direction and wisdom you need <3
Jen, my 7 year old is the exact same way...he is on the computer all the time. For some reason he likes to watch you tube videos of other people playing video games he likes. (gives him ideas for when he plays)
Mandy, thank you!! God has definitely shown me which direction to take. I just have to wait for His timing when to approach hubby about it (now is definitely NOT a good time)
I feel like Esther...prepping for so long just to meet with the king once. I'm doing so much prepping of organization, getting my life in order, getting things straightened around here...all to prove to him (and myself) that our life won't be crazy when we do this.
Thanks ladies for commenting!
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